Hi mum... well we have moved again hopefully we will settle here nicely. Dion has worked so very hard to make everything good for us all xx Wishing you were here as always, my birthday in a few days the first one without you, wish i could sleep all day through it. Missing you millions, so much crap going on at the moment, i think i know what you would say to me though babe, i have let things get to me but promise you that i wont anymore xx Things still arent getting any easier without you really, my heart feels like it is breaking most days, i have to stop myself from thinking about it all or i dont think i would be able to carry on xxxxx love you millions babe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx